Stuck in my room, but at least I get to live the life of a hikikkomori(anime, video games, and a lot of alone time).

I scanned all the pokemon sketches I did. They'll be up soon.

Someone asked me today, since I liked drawing, what would my career be. I sat there for a second, and said some bs, but honestly I didn't have an answer. Not that it's a problem or anything, I mean, there's still time I guess. I'm determined to do what I love, even if I have to work at some shitty place full time and draw during my weekends to self publish 1,000 stories until 1 actually makes it.

It's pretty intimidating, the whole comic industry. It's very competitive and the industry as a whole is going though rough times. I think it'll change in a few years, for the better with online distribution and new ways of people buying and viewing comics.

When you're making a piece, do you ever get to start thinking if it's good enough to show to the outside world? Like, what if all you're doing, the effort you put in something, countless hours, is futile. In the end I know it's for you, but at the same time, it feels good to hear other people like it.

I read a lot of manga, and watch a lot of anime. It's my form of escapism(that and video games). I like the dynamic art and angles, and the stories; It's where I get most of my inspiration. When I watch or read an emotional scene, and it gets to the point of tears, I think to myself, "Wow, this guy is amazing, to be able to make me feel this way about these characters. I hope to someday be able to make people feel emotions like this in my work." It's very inspiring to know what people are capable of when making comics, because if even one person felt what I wanted them to, reading something I made, It'd be euphoric.

Well, pushing the usual worries aside, I'm pretty excited about the coming years. I want to be able to die knowing that I accomplished what I set out to do, so I'll make it work out; my life.

Here's to the future
--SZ

...we could sail the seven seas.

I was on a good streak. of inking I mean, but as soon as I got out of school all I've been doing is sleeping and eating with sprinkles of watching anime and video games. My life is like a hikikkomori and that doesn't really bother me, cause I'm a hikikkomori+ cause I have friends. so maybe I won't grow up to be too socially retarded.

I am kind of confused right now, because I think subconsciously I want to suffer. But at the same time that thought makes me depressed.

I want to sit under a tree all day, look at the sky, and worry about nothing.

I have some mad scanning to do though. I have a bunch of sketches from me and Grafighte, so those should be up soon. maybe that'll lighten the mood in my universe

greatest song ever

Love me cancerously
Like a salt-sore soaked in the sea.
'High-maintenance' means
You're a gluttonous queen
Narcissistic and mean.
Kill me romantically
Fill my soul with vomit
Then ask me for a piece of gum.
Bitter and dumb
You're my sugarplum.
You're awful, I love you!

CHORUS
She moves through moonbeams slowly
She knows just how to hold me
And when her edges soften
Her body is my coffin
I know she drains me slowly
She wears me down to bones in bed

Must be the sign on my head
That says, oh...
Love me dead! Love me dead!

You're a faith-healer on T.V.
You're an office park without any trees
Corporate and cold
Gushing for gold
Leave me alone.
You suck so passionately
You're a parasitic, psycho, filthy creature
finger-bangin' my heart
You call me up drunk
Does the fun ever start?
You're hideous and sexy!

REPEAT CHORUS

Must be the sign on my head
That says, oh...
Love me dead! Love me dead!

SOLO

Love me cancerously
Brrrot-dot-da-d-da-da!
How's your new boy?
Does he know about me?
You've got the mark of the beast.
You're born of a jackal! You're beautiful!

REPEAT CHORUS

Wha' 'bout that sign on my head
That says, oh...
Love me dead!

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Anyways, I started inking, I think I'll commit to that. I'll also make some minor changes to pages and panels I don't like anymore so look out

--SZ

I realized that the pages are illegible. I went through each one and put the script of the page under it if you want to look again and be able to read it, lol. thats all


--SZ